Entry 15: One for the Team...

lately i have lost my pen...
ideas have become fragmented...
no longer cohesive...

or maybe that has been the case all along...

something the person mentioned at yesterday's interview...

taking one for the team...

sometimes...
what is important is doing what needs to be done...
what the team needs u to do...

throw away ur ideology...
let go of what u think should be done...
what u want to do...
what u want ur role to be...

its about being what others want u to be...
what role they need u to fulfill...

u are part of the team...
and a team is about having people who are willing to give up their personal desires...
all for the good of the team...

take one for the team...
take the shit if they need u to take...
eat it and savour it so the rest of the team don't need to eat it...

sometimes i wish i could be something different...
something closer to what i fancy...

but all these are just personal thoughts...

the team don't need things to be different...
the team don't need me to be what i want to be...

the team embrace who i am...
the team just want me to be me...

isn't it nice to have a team that takes u for who u are...
not what u can or should become...

that alone should be comforting enough...
that alone makes me lucky to be in the team...

when the team is functioning so well...
why intrude with ur personal wants...

but just that sometimes i hope that...
one day when i am eating shit alone...
someone from the team would take out a spoon and eat it with me...

the joy of sharing ur shit...

one whole team eating shit happily together...

and it really does not taste that bad really...

hahaha...