Entry 4: The Anime Effect

i always have this problem after i completed one whole series of anime...
i suffer from this withdrawal...
overwhelming sense of loss...
like i just lost a brother...
someone who kept me company for so long...
a group of friends i know that exist in the digital world...
and as the anime ends...
so is my attachment to all the characters...
its like their death...
i was in part of their lives...
and then i am gone...
or they are gone...

u can call me a geek...
otaku...
but somehow...
whenever i watch anime or drama series...
i find it hard not to grow a sense of attachment to the characters...
ok...
maybe i am really an otaku...

but there are so many things particular in anime that u cannot find in the real world...
and i by no means withdraw myself into the world of anime and pretend that is real life...
i am not as crazy as that...
but the appeal...
the envy...

the true sense of brotherhood...
true unconditional friendship...
that is so hard to find in the real world...
some times i wished that i have such friends...
such companions...
such support...
but the real world is more complicated...
that is why anime is anime...
that is why people watch anime...
or at least...
that is why i enjoy watching anime...

kudos to K-on...
thank you for all the time we have shared...

maybe i am growing a bit nuts...
why else would i mourn an end of a friendship to an anime...
hahaha...