aren't we all suckers for pain...
no no no...
not the type of sucker for pain my good friend talked about...
the type of sucker for pain that probably hate getting hurt...
but loves it as well...
i am talking about instances where u are in pain yet u feel the urge to inflict more pain...
not in the sadistic manner...
have u ever got a paper-cut...
or an ulcer...
or just a scratch...
insect bite...
anything that cause some level of discomfort...
have u ever got that urge to just to press onto the wound...
over-scratch that insect bite...
just to feel that tingling sensation of pain...
yes maybe u feel pretty hurt...
maybe a tear would slip...
but then after u let things rest for a while...
u have that urge to mess with it all over again?...
come on...
i am sure u have that kind of instances...
it can't always be just me...
how weird can a weird person be, right?...
this is actually not as psycho as u think...
u are not sick or anything if u do that...
unless u go to the extremes to do it...
otherwise...
is just u wanting to get a little stimulation...
whatever that u do...
what u are unintentionally doing is to active the senses of skin or organ that is already pretty sensitive for whatever reason...
this stimulate the sense over there creating an intense sensation...
and when u let go of it...
the sensation dissipate and in no time u crave for it again...
just like a drug addict need his fix...
or like a bored person wanted some entertainment...
we all just want to stimulate our senses...
apparently that is why some people like to go and poop...
to force things out through... er...
nevermind...
anyway sometimes life let u get bored and rot for so long...
then suddenly decides to strike u and sweep u away with these strong waves...
before u can decide on anything...
everything is already set...
that was how i felt...
just yesterday...
i was an useless unemployed...
wasting my life away by going out...
going to the beach...
playing games...
watching movies...
watching videos...
writing blogs...
go training...
play sports...
and today...
before i know it...
i am a fulfilled employed...
utilising my life to work at the computer for hours straight...
with every ounce of my energy used up that all i want to do when i reach home is sleep...
this is the life boss...
and it all happens so quickly...
i thought i was there to find out more...
before anything...
i got my desk...
my computer...
my workload...
really I-GG.com...
hahaha...
and really i am just tired dead...
makes me wonder...
is this what i want...
i feel that i want to do so much but didn't...
like...
cough...
asiangaming.blogspot.com...
cough...
drawing strips...
jap~!...
so many things...
now would i ever get to do them...
wait strike that...
now would i ever be alive enough to do them...
i feel i have put in more work than i ever have during my school days...
TIRED-DEAD...
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