Entry 48: 13 Days...

if u have read my previous entries...
u would have known how anal i can be about numbers...
so it is perhaps with a pinch of irony that it has to be 13 days...

then again...
not like i have a choice or anything...

the year 2009 is over...
quite a year...
with lots of changes...
and growing...

2010 is here...
merely 2 more years till...
come on...
we all know what is coming...

the transition of the years this time round has not feel that drastic...
i for one took a long time before i registered that 2010 is here already...
its already january...

but nothing sums up a year better than a close friend messaging u in late night...
reminding u that it has been 10 years...
asking u of dreams and aspirations...

years flew by...
what have we done...
what have we achieved...

amidst all the well intentions...
i cannot helped but feel depressed...
2009 has not been a good year...
in a certain way...
same goes for my life...

but i was touched constantly...
because u always seem to remember every little thing i said...
even things i have long kept in the depths of my memory...
u are the one who remind me...

for that i say...
Thank You...

let not thy dreams go astray...
forget not the aspirations of thy youth...

naming something can be such an ass...
u want a good name...
a perfect name...
one without any flaws...
there are no restrictions...
limits...
or boundaries...
ur imagination can take its wings...
this high degree of freedom makes everything such a pain in the ass...
we just need a name...
that's all...
but we cannot help get pass ourselves without making it as perfect as it can be...

what an ass...

that's it then...
13 days...

anxiety and fear grew till they vanished as i spoke to my friend...
strange load of powders...
white and brown...
will they be as innocent as they seem?...

foreign rule with an iron clamp on the tongue...
will the grasp be as tight as some fear?...

what i once loathed but now looks home...
will it be as bad as i once impressed?...

like what i told my friend...
i just want to come back...
in one piece...

till 13 days then...

there is no blogger where i am going...