Entry 52: Procastination... Monitor...

hohoho...
i am back...
it has been a long time...
yes...
just when this is beginning to feel like those old blogs and projects...
no no no...
this will not die...

not yet at least...

2 weeks...
quite a long time if u think of it...
there is just slightly over 100 "2 weeks" a year...

so each "2 weeks" is a whopping 1% of a year...

during this time...
as i recover from my illness...
and struggle with work...
yes...
everyone went crazy trying to finish a mountain load of work before the new year...

before i knew it...
that crazy 2 weeks are over...
and i am hit with a long holiday...

what i once perceived as long anyway...
for quite a while i was looking forward to this long break...
recharge my batteries...
get something done...
i even lined up things for myself to do...

then as sudden as it came...
i realised it is already wednesday...
half way through...
and i have not even gotten anything done yet...

thinking back...
what have i been doing...
something i struggle to answer myself...

time just slipped by...
i do not feel like i am riding on the waves...
it was as if time is the moving earth plates underneath the ocean water...
i a mere boat struggling on the waves...
fooled by the pretense into believing though i am struggling...
i was moving with time...
the waves turn out to be nothing but a surface put up as a disguise...
time was moving so fast...
i was not rowing hard enough...
now i found myself stranded behind...
battling the waves so i can catch up...

who can catch up with time...

i realised ever since i came back...
has been a month now...
a lot has changed...

i was shamed recently by my friend...
who named a movie title but i have no info in reply...
what has happened to me?...

i have not been to the cinema in 2 weeks now...
nor do i feel the urge...
OMG...

i am a changed man...

saw my camera on my desk just now...
and i realised i have not upload my photos from my trip...
so i spend some time arranging everything...
it has been almost a month since i said i want to organise my photos...
finally that is done...

i can say i am a professional procastinator...
at least i am good at something...

while going through my photos...
i struggle with some where i have to contemplate whether i should delete them...
so many memories...
sad...
happy...
still memories...
sometimes i wish i can just have the courage and heart to delete them...
but in the end i kept most of it...
just in case anyone ask for them...

a lot happened these 2 weeks...
to say them all..
would take me another 2 weeks in planning...

but perhaps the most significant event of my new year is...
wait for it...
the sudden failing of my monitor...

it was fine...
then a few seconds later it was not...
and it took me hours...
and a lot of fiddling with my computer...
hardware-wise...
to realise it is my monitor that is faulty...

at the mean time i am using an old crt...
which...
kind of makes me happy because it proved that i was right those years ago when i claimed that the crt gives me headache because of the brightness...
yes!!!...
hahaha...
i told u so...
then again...
i am at least stuck with this headache for another 5 days until my monitor is back...

or like my friend said...
maybe this is a good time for me to walk away from my computer...

not going to happen...
i have made my vow with my com~!...