lots of things undone...
somehow...
i managed to add more items on my to-do list...
the rate of adding is way over the rate of deleting...
that brings into mind...
am i simply trying to do too much...
over-ambitious?...
or simply...
poor time-management...
talking about time-management...
the same weird thought creeps into my mind again...
the lack of sleep...
the lack of the need for sleep...
lately i am beginning to think that maybe i should try to force myself adapt to about 5 hours a day...
its always this battle between getting more time...
and less time for sleep...
u sleep more so u would not feel tired so u have more functionable hours...
or...
u are going to be that tired anyway...
why not sleep less so u in actual fact have more hours?...
such a tough choice...
lately i have been trying to get myself to exercise more...
i have this fetish where once i am not skinny i feel fat...
and i hate feeling hate...
nothing to do with me being over-weight and adorably chubby when i was young...
but i just like feeling skinny...
probably the rugged look thing...
if u want to look rough and homeless...
being skinny does give u lots of credibility on the streets...
lately...
i have been thinking alot too...
is the path i am taking the path i want to go?...
if not...
what should i do?
if yes...
what should i do?...
on my birthday card...
my good friend wrote...
"do not forget ur dreams"...
it was something i told quite a number of friends...
never allow me to stray and derail from what i seek to achieve...
am i on the right track?...
road seem ambiguous...
it appears to go towards the same direction...
but with twist and turns...
obscured from full view...
a chance i must take perhaps...
if only...
all roads lead to Rome...
now all i can do is believe...
and freaking write~!...
H.A.L.O. is not dunzo~!...
hopefully not yet anyways...
lately...
i have been using alot of the word lately...
lately...
i realised why i do not talk as passionately about games as others...
first...
i am not a hardcore gamer...
just a casual one...
so i do not study games the hardcore way...
this is a hindrance in developing a strong sense of passion...
secondly...
i suck at names...
when i read...
watch videos...
play games...
i am one that cannot remember the characters' names or places...
this explains why i can only talk about games in generic terms...
that huge freaking monster~!...
and not some name...
it gets difficult when u want to distinguish which monster i am talking about...
almost as if i never played the game...
lastly...
i realised i do not develope a strong sense of emotional attachment with the characters of the game...
most of the time i am just drifting along...
playing for playing...
maybe the first 2 factors contributed to this...
what does this say about me as a person?...
hm...
guess i am just not as geek as i want to be...
that is a bummer...
lately...
i realise Christmas is near...
the sad thing is...
when i think about Christmas...
the only thing i am really thinking about is the double long weekends...
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