how strange things are...
just less than 6 months ago...
i raved about how i can blog on the go...
did a blog post while on the bus going home...
then 6 months later...
i hardly update this blog anymore...
how time flies...
unknown to many...
maybe unknown to all...
these 4 weeks have really been a roller coaster ride for me...
at enormous proportions...
and i thought i have grown sufficiently to ever go through such emotional up and down again...
to be honest...
i was going through a phase of life...
trying to discover meaning...
purpose...
finding directions...
and while i was a lost sheep...
i undertook alot of illogical...
irrational...
irresponsible decisions...
bad old habits i thought i have let go returned...
and somehow i got addicted into putting myself in situations where i will experience extreme up and downs...
it was almost as if i needed the emotional extremity to feel alive...
pretty scary when i finally realised how foolish i was...
yet...
pretty exciting looking back...
now i am on a the crucial steps to recovery...
may this past forever remain as history...
tab on for inspiration for a good story in future...
and only as that...
i guess even though i thought it is impossible...
i grew alot again...
maturity a desire forever beyond the grasp of a young heart...
talking about difficult times...
lately i came to know that my friends are going through rough patches in their lives...
mine troubles pale in comparison to what they have to face...
i dare not pray i can help them...
but i wish they can have the strength to see things through...
because they are good people...
good people should not suffer...
they deserve to be happy...
if u are a true friend...
help me keep them in ur prayers...
kind of like...
hm...
i would like to sort of pray for these friends of my friend...
who mentioned them in no explicit details on his blog i read...
i wish for whatever that they need...
ya...
something like that...
things at the work place is not good...
progress...
the lack of it...
motivation slowly being put out...
by office politics...
the lack of will of others...
the distinctly lack of incentives...
kind of feel like just clocking in...
clocking out...
but at least i get to play games at work...
so its not really that bad...
i guess...
but i was hoping things can be more fulfilling...
there are more responsibilities to undertake...
maybe i am just thinking too much...
though work sucks...
that does not mean that my career sucks...
for the first time ever...
ok...
wait...
i need to calm down a little...
ok...
actually i can't...
for the first time ever...
i am getting ever so close to my aspirations...
writing...
now in my grasp...
although the magnitude of the task remain so big that i feel overwhelmed by it...
but if i do it well...
who knows...
definitely a good step towards a dream...
small...
slow...
insignificant...
yet i took a step...
to the friend who constantly reminds me of my dreams...
here is one up ur a$$...
hahaha
feel happy for me...
before i end off...
interesting story that i will share next time...
how a mid-budget turns into something bigger...
how once again i took on much more than i can handle...
and how u can order off the menu something almost exactly similar to a set menu but with slightly less items and a higher price...
stay tune...
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